CBH Blues I

CBH Blues I
Left Des Plaines
The screams in the cracks of my mind continue
I spent so much time crying for escape
Only to remain unsure of my sanity on the outside
The cool May air both calms and aggravates
The rain is a blessing and a source of distress
I spent so much time crying for home
Only to remain unsure where home should be:
Basketballs and the gentle whir of the staff-
Controlled laundry machines
Stiff markers and All About The Benjamins
Cafeteria chicken wings and a flimsy pillow
Being out is making my heart pound and my stomach churn
Even if I have my own filled pillow and apple-sour cherry pie
Ink pens and notebooks with metal coils
I spent so much time crying for home only to doubt where
I should find home at all